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Subject:Realizations
Time:02:35 am
[mood| grateful]
[music| The Who - Teenage Wasteland ]

This week has been so emotionally and physically exhausting...Sara left thursday morning and Krystel left thursday night so we've been partying it up as much as we can. Wednesay night M, Sara and I had a really nice, intimate dinner at this amazing place in City Centre. We laughed and reminisced about all the good times of the semester, took pics and chilled. Afterwards we met Christine and Krystel at the Glen Oaks for a pint and then relaxed at the apartment. We watched some of the old videos we took (oh man are they hysterical lol...you guys are going to piss your pants when I show you the tape M sends me) and sat around until we were too tired. We went to bed and then Sara woke us up in the morning to say goodbye. I have all her info and we are planning to meet up in NY in a year or two for a big reunion and then Greece in 2010! It was so sad to see her go and it's been so much quieter in the apartment but I know I will se her again and that I will keep in contact - and M is still here so we will have a blast with the rest of the time here.

Thursday night a bunch of us went out to dinner to see Krystel off and then for a few pints...it was mad fun and we got some good pics. We went to the bus stop with her and it was so sad to see her go...but she is coming to NY in May so I am really excited!

As emotionally draining as this week has been I have been trying to make the best of it and balance the partying with the studying. I'm really happy now because my dad is visiting, he just arrived today. We're going out to dinner for the next few nights and basically just enjoying Galway (and of course the pubs =)). It's so good to see him again, it's nice to see a familiar face during such an emotional time.

Other than that I've basically been getting ready for exams and enjoying the rest of my time here. As sad as I am to leave Galway I am so thankful for the experiences I've had here and for the people I've met. As hard as it is that we wont all be together again for a while I will stay in contact with everyone and I have decided that I am going to come back to Ireland - I'm looking into getting my degree here or maybe working temporarily. All I know is that I love Ireland and that I have not seen the last of it.

I'm also mad excited to come home and see everyone. I miss my family and friends so much and it will be so good to see them after all this time - and it will also be really nice to be home for the holidays.

I've realized so many things on this trip but one thing has stood out amongst them all - I am responsible for my own happiness and I don't need to look to anything outside of myself to feel complete. I know that sounds so cheesy and cliche but Ireland has really made me realize how much I have and how capable of a person I am. I really feel like I've changed, that Ireland has changed my life in a way that I never thought it could be changed. I realize now that I have so many good people in my life and that it is possible to be truly happy. I have such a more positive outlook about life and most importantly about myself. I've realized that I've held myself back all this time, that I've been too hard on myself and that I've lived in regret and anger. I know now that there is so much more too life than insecurity and negative past experiences and I am so glad that this trip opened my eyes to so many things.

Well I'm going to go, good luck on finals and papers everyone! I can't wait to see you all in 10 days!
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